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(read between the lines...) [13 Apr 2007|11:34pm] [ music | the decemberists ] i need to pick a college and i'm starting to panic. i have no reason to panic at worst, i'll be in new orleans at best, i'll be in new york somewhere in the middle there's always boston or DC any of those places would be ok but i still can't decide. i don't want to graduate with a million student loans but i want to go to NYU so badly it hurts i just don't know if it's worth it i'm not a grownup yet, i'm not ready for this.

(4 found a new way | read between the lines...) [15 Oct 2006|06:32pm] sorry about the terrible quality i'm so ready for halloween

(2 found a new way | read between the lines...) [01 Sep 2006|10:13pm] [ music | simon and garfunkel ]                                   regret's a bitch.

(1 found a new way | read between the lines...) [18 Aug 2006|12:19am] [ music | cobra starship ] "That's it! I've had it with these mother fucking snakes on this mother fucking plane!"                       best. movie. ever. the end.

(7 found a new way | read between the lines...) [14 Aug 2006|09:06pm] [ mood | pissed off ] so, i'm blowing up the damn school, who's with me?

(6 found a new way | read between the lines...) school basically sucks at life [31 Jul 2006|06:04pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | placebo ] 1st semester: AP gov/economics - alverson (who the hell is that?) art 1 - walton ceramics - nowell zoology - shaw 2nd semester: AP english - mcbride AP statistics - mr. j (heck yes) french 4 - beemer student law - malone total cost: 1 hour, $246, + the will to live

(11 found a new way | read between the lines...) [05 Jul 2006|03:43pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | bruce springsteen ] i got a kitten today. i went to pick up my dog from the vet and there was a cage with a bunch of little orange kittens and a tiny grey one. so of course i took the grey one. ( i absolutely love her. )

(4 found a new way | read between the lines...) [16 Mar 2006|06:45pm] [ music | diplo rhythms (also cool) ] im getting better, im so e x c i t e d i can go back to school tomorrow, get my work, sleep through my classes (i am still sick-ish afterall) and then, its spring break i miss you guys, more than i care to admit. but im so happy its spring break, and we have to do a million wonderful things to make it memorable. im tired of average days and being bored. im also really happy about david getting back. he makes everything just a little more fun. our group really does need him to keep the balance. ive found new music for the first time in a very long time. madeline peyroux, kate havnevic, the like, the monotypes, vassy- all very chill, and abslutely incredible

(2 found a new way | read between the lines...) [04 Jan 2006|02:33pm] ( benefits of boredom )

(5 found a new way | read between the lines...) [02 Nov 2005|04:08pm] [ mood | lost ] i am so sorry.

(8 found a new way | read between the lines...) [15 Oct 2005|05:08pm]

(read between the lines...) [13 Oct 2005|08:19pm] ( i <3 you kids )

(9 found a new way | read between the lines...) ::someday i'm sure i'll be whole again:: [01 Oct 2005|09:18pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | death cab for cutie ] this weekend so far was beautiful. homecoming was lovely i went ( rolling ) i saw my sister's ( show ) she was wonderful she's my own little ( sally ) i feel bad about people i've hurt in the past and i dont want to relive any of that. i'm careless and cold and indecisive and i hate that you have every right to hate me. i'm not sure what i'm doing, but i'm doing the best i can. i'm so scared of repeating the past.

(4 found a new way | read between the lines...) [27 Sep 2005|05:16pm] [ mood | complacent ] [ music | coldplay ] for the first time in a long time, i dont hate you. because you're not worth hating. ive known it all along, but for a while hating you just felt so justified. now it just seems like another wasted emotion. and i dont have any to spare. everything can fall apart, i dont care anymore. im done caring. i just dont have the energy. im just going to close my eyes and pretend none of this exists. i'll be alright. i always am.   ( wishes on paper dont bring the real thing )

(8 found a new way | read between the lines...) and it suddenly sinks in [04 Sep 2005|05:39pm] [ mood | all alone ] [ music | take a wild guess ] after all the crushes are faded and all my wishful thinking was wrong i'm jaded i hate it i'm tired of being alone so hurry up and get here     (if you even exist)

(4 found a new way | read between the lines...) katrina in my own backyard [02 Sep 2005|04:03pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Hot Hot Heat ] my hammock didnt make it, ( but the trampoline survived )

(6 found a new way | read between the lines...) i <3 the rain but... [31 Aug 2005|04:27pm] [ mood | out of it ] [ music | Graham Colton Band ] too much rain leads to too much time leads to too much wallowing. i'm a wallower ladies and gentlemen. give me a few days and any excuse not to get dressed and i immediately fall into billie holiday and joni mitchell and old movies and harry potter and candy (lot and lots of candy). its probably for the best that school is back. i really want to watch the nightmare before x-mas pre-cal sucks, but i sincerely <3 mr j. he is awesome. can we do something huge and weird this sunday? im thinking like a giant 'game' day. we were discussing a four-square revival with all those elaborate rules we used to have in middle school i have this nifty little digital camera that i havent had reason to use in weeks. gimme a reason. i wish i had something interesting to say after saturday, i will always babysit when asked

(5 found a new way | read between the lines...) [28 Aug 2005|02:14pm] [ music | Coldplay ] "i'd ask you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet. but you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like god put an angel on earth just for you, who could rescue you from the depths of hell. and you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything, through cancer. and you wouldn't know about sleeping sitting up in the hospital room for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes, that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply to you. you don't know about real loss, cause it only occurs when you've loved something more than you love yourself."                  -good will hunting as selfish as it is, all i want is for someone to love me that completely. is that too much to ask for?

(13 found a new way | read between the lines...) and so it begins [08 Aug 2005|11:30am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | good riddance (green day) ] last night we said goodbye to rachael and i was struck with this profound sense of inevitability. this year, we'll have to say goodbye to all the seniors, the class that brought us in to the fold. then in two years, we'll have to say goodbye to us. and that's the scary part, instead of commiserating and being emo together, we'll all just have to get on with our lives all by ourselves. but i really believe that we will never have friendships quite like this ever again. we really are more like family. i mean, when you get right down to it, there really is a whole lot of unconditional love keeping this group together. and i like knowing that no matter how badly i screw up, you guys aren't going to abandon me. cause i think we all need that sometimes, a safety net of people that wont give up on you even when you've given up on yourself. so with this first departure comes a little bit of perspective. ( we wont always be a 'we' )

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